I'll never forget that holy mass which i once attended; I don't know wether the church had risen up to heaven or wether heaven had descended to earth.....

People around me were standing with reverence, which helped me feel the holiness of this place, especially the holy fraction prayer. Everybody was alert to the different events that were happening in this service. In the midst of that holy atmospher some words that the priest had said touched my heart, and i was deeply affected. They were:

"O' the wounds of Christ, stab me with the spear of divine love. O' the death of Christ, exhilerate me with the love of the one who died for me. O' the blood of Christ, clkeanse me of all sins. O' my beloved Jesus, when you see me a withereing member, revive me with the oil of your grace".

Tears that came out of love started falling, declaring that a new start is going to begin. The holy service of the mass ended and i partook the Holy Communion. I left the church quickly feeling that i had a treasure which i didn't want to lose by talking to people.

I went home, sat in my room and closed the door. I took a pencil and started writing. "Dear JESUS, when you see me a withering member revive me with the oil of your grace." These words shook me. And i went on writing down my thoughts: "Dear LORD JESUS, you know my weakness and inability to do any good, whenever i try to raise up, i always end up by falling down. There is noone else except you who can put in me the will to do good, and saturate me with your love."

When i went on saying this sentence many times : "Dear JESUS, if you see me a withering member....".

I was happy because the saint who wrote this holy fraction prayer shared his feelings and his needs with me.

At the end of my contemplation i found a comforting voice inside me saying. If you want to become a saint, deny yourself, and feel your weakness, depend on God who gives grace to the lowly.

Jesus loves you so much.

Before the world began,
YOU were on His mind.
And every tear YOU cry,
Is precious in His eyes.

Nothing YOU can do,
Could make Him love YOU more.
And Nothing that you've done,
Could make Him close the door.

BECAUSE OF HIS GREAT LOVE
HE GAVE HIS ONLY SON.
EVERYTHING WAS DONE,
SO YOU WOULD COME.

Do not doubt your abilities. With God?s Help, you cannot fail. Seek him and he will give you the courage to take on this earthly world. The more faith you have in him, the more meaningful your life will be.