Emotion is a great blessing. Through emotion I realize the amount of pain my parents had gone through to bring me up. Emotion between people, parents and grandparents is a great thing. It's true that passion is a great blessing but to many it turned out to be an attachment to God's commandments, his words and His saints, rather than the worldly passions! But my attachment was with people. On top were my parents! I saw my parents as God's agents, and in them i saw God's greatness.

God advised me to honor my father and my mother. And to honor parents is a Biblical order.... But emotional attachment to parents is not acceptable, as Jesus Christ Himself said, "He who loves his father and mother more than he loves Me, does not deserve Me." This passion was my weakness and which delayed my repentance.

I screamed for help but this vanished amongst my weakness of great passion for my parents. I sought God's help through my father in confession, to whom i said, "I tried hard to hide my deep need for their love and affection and above all the need to see them.

The Holy Spirit, which worked in my father in confession, exposed what i have tried to hide from him. He advised me not to travel and not to follow my desires. I was greatly annoyed by my father and felt that he was somewhat cruel to me. I forgot that i was seeking God's help through father in confession . Father felt what was going through my mind and said, " Do as you please but before you do so, open the Bible of any page and read the first words that your eyes catch, and through this you will hear the word of God." I immediately headed toward my cell and prayed earnestly to God asking for His help and assistance for repentance. I then opened my Bible and there i found God addressing me. The first verse that caught my sight. "Do not descend ... Do not go."

I thank you dear God, that You have taught me that repentance is a fight with my passions and desires, even with the desires that seem holy and harmless. You have taught me to consult the Bible and to obey the word of God from my heart. I ask you dear God to obtain for me the power to fight all worldly emotions and crown me with pure love and release me from all worldly passions and desires.